Nadine J Walters – My Life

Now that I am mid way through my 71st year, I am finding that history does indeed repeat itself. Old habits, not good habits are finding a way of making their way back into my life and I really, really, really need to make some changes. Did I say REALLY need to make changes. Yes, I did.

Sufi said the purpose of life is to unlearn what has been learned and remember what has been forgotten, and I wonder if that is the heart of my problem. Feeling lost, cluttered, unable to connect, being busy without accomplishing anything. If this is a cycle, which it seems to be, how do I break free? How do I move forward?

I think I will start with living in the present, unlearning old habits, and instead remembering what has been forgotten. I will write about what I am feeling, finding the wisdom that comes up in that moment and embracing the shadows showing up, entering into a new way of thinking and doing with it curiosity.

The funny thing about thing blog is that I set it up last spring just to do that – to write daily. I wanted to say something interesting and witty and attach a charming photo to illustrate my thoughts. I found I had nothing I was willing to share, and that I wasn’t witty or interesting, and finding a photo was too much trouble, so I am going to take another route. Instead of being witty and interesting, I am just going to write how I feel at whatever time of day I feel like and attach a random photo just because it is the one that appeals to me at that moment. Today is the first step.