Nadine J Walters – My Life

Today’s Question: How Have You Been?

My Answer: A little up, a little down… or maybe just not all that interested in sharing my thoughts lately.

On a physical level, things are actually going pretty well. Just this past week, I had my annual Medicare wellness check—the one where they include the test if you’re still cognitive and aware. I’m happy to report I passed with flying colors. I could draw a clock with the hands at the right time and even remembered the three magic words: river, night, finger. The things they ask you to do after turning 65 are fascinating, to say the least.

It’s been a full week. I had a mammogram, filed the taxes for my brother’s estate, had cataract surgery on my second eye (vision is amazing now!), and still managed to walk five miles every morning. I taught six yoga classes, kept up with the usual household tasks, wrote a post for my Life blog, updated my Art blog, participated in my CVP art course, joined several online studio sessions with fellow painters, and yes—actually made some art.

So yes, I’ve been busy.

And yet, I haven’t posted in three days. That small gap has felt like a rupture in my rhythm, like I’ve broken a promise to myself. Now here I am at 2 AM, unable to sleep, typing away. Is it guilt that kept me up? Or maybe a lack of inspiration? I’ve been trying to name the feeling that’s been sitting with me. Is it disinterest? Fatigue? Resistance?

Maybe I’ve just hit a wall with my writing. Maybe I just don’t feel like sharing right now. And you know what? I’m going to accept that.

Because here’s the truth: the word I’ve finally landed on is relief. I’ve broken through the block with a little bit of whining, a lot of wandering, and now—here I am, back at the keyboard again.

I guess every day doesn’t will bring clarity or motivation. Sometimes the best I can do is show up, acknowledge the noise in our heads, and keep moving forward—one word, one walk, one breath at a time. Whether I’m writing, painting, or just being, I’m learning to let the rhythm shift without guilt. And tonight, that feels like enough.